So let's go back a few months in time, back to warm weather during the day, and sweaters by night. Not sure of the actual date, must of been around beginning of October. I've always noticed God's fingerprints in my life and this was surely one of those days.
Ever have one of those days, where nothing goes right? (if you haven't then I think you're just in denial lol) There are those days that it goes from bad, to annoying, to really?! Most of the time when it gets to that point I just laugh, really what else can you do? On this particular day I fumed, then I laughed, then I looked and saw God's hand there protecting me and unborn baby Isaac.
It was a grain day, meaning I was going to take the truck about 40 minutes south to a feed store where I pick up over 300 lbs of feed and horse bedding, on grain day I would meet my friend (who owns the grain store) for lunch. The catch is her lunch is at noon-1 if I'm early no big deal, if I'm late I'd miss lunch with her and have to wait until 1 for her to get back. As luck would have it I had a lesson scheduled for later that day and had a lesson earlier that morning so I had this perfect window to run all my errands in. I think you know where this is going, it's easy to see looking back but in the moment it's hard to remember it is just a day and really what does some inconvenience matter? Isn't it so though that God uses those times to speak to us, to get our attention, remind us who truly is in charge?
I remember thinking in order to be there on time I needed to leave and drive straight there, but as I left the door I was already behind schedule. I got to the truck to realize that I had just enough gas to get me a few miles into town, the opposite way of the store. Great now I was going to be really late. Not wanting to be responsible for being late I called my husband, who last drove the truck, and asked why he didn't tell me the truck needed gas, he said he told me the night before. Huh who knew? Guess I'm not as good of a listener as I thought. Well great now the bad mood cloud was looming over me, so as I fretted I figured out that I could make it to the next town down, it would be out of the way but not as bad and was only 10 miles or so from my house too. Now I just needed to call my friend and change a few plans like having her meet me at the restaurant, but i still had to hurry.
So I stopped at the gas station and got gas paid at the pump to speed things up and got back in the truck to leave. I was in a hurry, irritated that I didn't leave earlier, angry that I didn't hear my husband tell me about the low gas and did I say in a hurry? I turned the truck on and pushed the brake down to...... wait the brake pedal went all the way to the floor, I'm normally not so dense but with the baby brain and being in a hurry it took me a second to realize I just lost my brakes. Panicked I called up my husband, and asked if I could nurse it home, I could still stop just not easily at all. Ok stop worrying I'm still here today and honestly leaving the truck there would've stressed me out more, I knew I could go really, really slow all the way home those 10 miles and that for the most part it is a flat easy drive and well I'm stubborn so I wanted to get home. So I called my friend told her the deal, laughed at my luck and told her I'd see her later. Then I inched out of the gas station. As I took my time getting home I realized that all those "irritations and interruptions" were God's way of protecting me and keeping me safe and reminding me not to be so easily angered by little hiccups in the day. Think of it this way I was pregnant (in my second trimester), I was going to be 40 miles from home with a truck full of grain. I could have lost the brakes at any time! Going down the road at 60, stop for an animal, a car, who knows what and wham no brakes! What would have happened to me, how about Isaac? Or what if I had been on my way home from grain and lost them I would've been stranded, that route was much hillier and with the added weight of grain it would've been even harder to stop. So many inconveniences landed me closer to home and they kept me safe. I'm soooo glad that while all ended well God showed me to wait on him once again and to praise him in all situations even when everything is going wrong, because in the end he knows what is best.
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